Party 'till you pass out drink 'till you're dead :)

I love Oliver Sykes. I've seen Bring me the Horizon twice and both times I was blown away by their preformance. I understand that there are certain bands that people love to hate, BMTH has to be one of those bands. I love them, they are by far my favorite band. Compared to count your blessing their second album, suicide season is a little softer. Their lyrics are by far the best yet on this album. I hate it more than anything when people go with the crowd and a certain band for no reason what so ever. They suck live, half the people that have told me this have never seen BMTH live so how the hell would you know? Their music is terrible and they sound the same as everyone else. OKAY well their music is absolutley amazing, they've changed their sound slighty and I love. Also did you take into consideration that maybe every other bands sounds like them? Regardless of anyone's opinion I will defend this band until my dying day. Their music has helped me through some tough stuff. They inspire me. Bring me the Horizon isn't like every other band out their. They're sarcastic, interactive with their fans, and very funny. Not to mention they provide encores unlike many of the bands you see today. I hope they keep doing what they're doing for many years down the road.

"We all carry these things inside that no one else can see, they hold us down like anchors they drown us out at sea, I look up to the sky they may be nothing there to see, but if I don't believe in him why would he believe in me?"
-Chelsea Smile



-Samantha J


* I'll add to this later. It's nowhere near done.

Rex

"lost and insecure you found me"

Kylie: You're an amazing best friend. I love you to death, and when we hang I'm able to just be myself. You get to see a side of me not many people know exists. We've been through a lot and I'm sure because of those challenges we can make it through anything that's thrown are way. I promise you I will be back for Warped 09. I wouldn't want to go with anyone else. Thank you for supporting me no matter the circumstance. You're one in a million baby gir :)

Baylee: It's this simple you saved me. I'm happier than I've ever been and I really owe it all to you. You are an amazing person and you don't know how much you mean to me. You're always right there even though you're not really here. I can't wait to see what the future has in store for us. Come June I'll be where I belong with you. I love you, forever and ever.

Tim: Wow wow wow, where do I even begin? We've overcome so much since you've been back. I gained my best friend back. I can say this I am happy to call you my best friend. With all that's happened we've both managed to find an extreme happiness. I wish you the best with being sober and with your love Bre. :)

Taylor: We hated each other, and we've grown so close. You're what keeps me going in school. You always have me laughing and cracking up over something. You're also the person that supports my happiness no matter who it may hurt. You've got my back and I've got yours. I'm going to miss you when I move. We need to get on the hanging out now!

Kayla: You were one of my best friends, and I loved you to pieces. It's sad how this whole thing has ended. I did anything and everything I could for you. You made me laugh harder than anyone, you also stuck up for me more than most. I understand how you feel about the whole situation and I'm sorry. You have a great girl and that's where we don't see eye to eye. I miss you like crazy and I hope one day i'll be able to call you my best friend again. I love you Kayla.

Everyone else, let's just say I've been through a lot this year with friends. I've been let down and built up. I've bent over backwards for the ones I love. I don't regret a single decision made. No matter what the one's above will always be loved.

-Samantha J.

Half Way Listin'

I have posted a new blog in awhile. What's happened. Family life is going pretty well, both parents now accept the fact I'm with Baylee. Speaking of Baylee we've got plans set in action. I'm going to finish high school here and then make the move in June to be with the love of my life. I'm really looking forward to everything. I have a lot to look forward to. Senior prom, senior pictures, spring break, and turning the big 18. It's all happening so so fast and I can say I'm ready for it all.

CHRISTMAS TOMORROW^&%$*#~

-Samantha J.

Roll the tape

The past few days have been one's of confusion and hate. I'm ready to leave Indiana, it's offical. You always meet and hear the people who say if they had the chance to pack up and go they would, I'm actually taking the opportunity. With happiness comes defeat and I've learned this the hard way. It's like i'm on the opposing team and there's no chance of bouncing back. School was cancelled today which gave me a chance to catch up on what's happened. When I finally put the pieces together I come to the conclusion that my happiness means nothing. Kyria's not coming home this Christmas which really makes me sad. I haven't seen her since June. I miss her more and more all the time. I wonder how she is, how big she's gotten and how school is. I bet she's gotten so big, she'll be 10 April 25th and I can't belive it. Tan, tall, and blue eyes, she's so beautiful. I'm waiting patiently for the time to pass, in the meanwhile I sit and listen away.

-Samantha J

Truth

First let me start off by saying I always do what makes me the happiest. Within the last two weeks i've managed to lose everyone closest to me. Alot of it was my fault but I can't go back and change the outcome so I deal. I don't mope and I don't care to some circumstance. In 29 days i'll be eighteen and making my own decisions. Justin and I broke up, which was for the best because I just wasn't happy and I think he knew. With letdown comes happiness, i've met someone new and she's amazing. Yes, she. Suprise shows how many people really listen when I speak! I've gotten some shit for it but I just don't care. I refuse to end something so good because of anger. I'm happy and if no one gets that than o'well. I'm just tired of having to please so many people. It's my turn to be happy. I won't fall to the floor and be trampled by anyone just to make them smile. I'm done with pleasing everyone when in reality i'm miserable.

-Samantha J

Conflicted

Today was the first day in literally years i've felt like my old self. I'm not sure why but today I just felt so good, not just emotionally but in all senses. I'm really ready for 18 to come. I know most likely, i'll end up living at home for awhile but that's fine. I have spring break plans and I hope they turn out, spring break this year is going to be a blast :) I work tonight but I don't mind I get time with my second mama. This weekened is going to be really chill. I'm feeling pajamas and cartoons all weekend. Saturday I have work and then hopefully I get to see the girls. christmas is soon; today in third hour we made snow flakes~ I was a happy camper. Then in second hour, best hour ever, we had a culinary day with teas and cookies. It went well. My grades are actually really good right now. I'm set one hundred percent on moving out of Indiana after my freshman year of college, so like March of 2010. I've been so busy lately I haven't had time for anything at all. I like the fast paced lifestyle though.

-Samantha J

Oh Ollie

Need I say more? The concert was amazing and I wouldn't trade that time for anything in the world. Oliver Sykes put more passion into his songs than anyother band I've ever seen live. He was simply amazing. The pictures will never leave my mind or the folder on my computer. December 6th, 2008 was one of the best days of my life. All 17 years, no joke.

Second Plants

So i'm in second hour, Botany. We have a sub so i've just been playing free tetris all hour and eating teddy grams. I think it's really funny, I admit what I said about Hanah becuase I don't care it's how I felt at the time. It's just really funny because the people who have told her the things I've said are the ones who've done the most talking. Way to cover your sorry selves. You're all sad stupid people. Just admit you talked shit, I speak truth. I was treated badly and I really could careless if you agree. I didn't deserve any of the things that were brought to me. Just for the record it was Justin you used for rides, and your grandmother only took us half way. Not to mention all the times I bought food for you. Then you sleep with an ex boyfriend of mine, and I find out you like the person I dated for almost a year. You're a piece of shit so stop posting little bulletin trying to make me feel bad. You're dead to me. In other news work this weekend!~ All the little kids that come to get their pictures taken are so cute. Plus just taking money is a really simple job. I think Saturday i'm hanging with the girls because they're going to be in town. I have a test fourth hour and I know nothing. I'm so stressed. I really just want everyone to leave me alone. Well almost time to go to third hour.

-Samantha J.

December Third

Tomorrow is going to test my strength, I refuse to let it eat me alive. I'm ready to prove that everyone deserves chances. My brain is overflowing and I'm so calm, for the first time in two years there's nothing. A calm that's it.

All for now. Bring me the Horizon in four days, i'm bummed Hanah can't go. I wish we could find her a ticket.
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Samantha j.